And I have mental health issues. Some of you know this but many will not, although no doubt you’ve thought “who is this nutter” at some point. I generally don’t talk to anyone who isn’t Doctor, psychiatrist or therapist about my mental health because I don’t like to burden people not trained to cope with such issues. Over the last 17 years I’ve had many different dsvm labels applied to me, and the last was a dual diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder (bpd) & Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (ptsd). If you’re not familiar with this labels, bpd is not like schizophrenia or multiple personality disorder, it’s more like an emotional functioning issue. If you have ever seen Girl Interrupted, then you may remember Wynona Ryder’s character having bpd. PTSD is regarded as a soldier’s illnes following combat (historically it was called shell shock in the 1st world war). However it isn’t exclusively a soldier’s illness, it can happen to anyone following a trauma. Mine was not caused because of combat, but as a result of being hurt as a child.
Despite many interventions (at my request) from Dr’s and mental health teams since my first diagnosis I still have episodes of mental distress. During such times I may say or do things that might offend or seem strange, please know it’s not personal and probably not meant, it’s my illness talking. Oh and one important thing, despite the media loving a good moral panic, like most people with mental health issues, im a greater harm to myself than to others. In fact people with a mental health issue are more likely to be the victim of violence than a perpetrator.
Ive decided to open up because my friend Paul bravely publicly opened his struggles to the world. You’re not alone my friend, my brother.